Today, I shared my fears and anxieties with someone very close to me, and they reassured me that they did not hate me, that I was in control, and that I deserve to be heard and seen--that I should not be ashamed of existing. And it made me cry, but in a good way. It made me think about all the times I have tried to make myself smaller and it made me think about the times other people have tried to make me feel small, and now I understand that I didn't deserve any of that. So here's to part one of opening up! I want to use my social media to speak about mental illness/mental health. I want to talk about how it relates to music sometimes. And I want to stop being ashamed.